Yaadein/Memories

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guzar gaya
ummr bhar sa zamaana
aur aaj phir
teri yaad aayi,

beet gaye aaj saal itne
ke milke bichad gaye
kayi apne
kayi paraaye,

zindagi ne tab
diya tha mauka
bola tha tujko
tham le mujhko,

tu to nikal gayi
haske kahin door
koi aur na samjha
phir is dil ka taraana,

na jaane kitne
hum par sitam na hote
yeh zindagi ka hota
koi aur hi fasaana,

agar tu rukti
uss din se ab tak
to aage bhi hota
jeene ka bahaana,

bola tha tujhko
kar le wafa ka waada
par tu to nikal gayi
hass ke kahin door,

yaadon ki
puraani kuchh
tasveerein aaj phir
bahar nikal aayeen,

na jaane kyon
aaj phir tu yaad aayi.

Translation in English:

Years gone by
feeling like many lifetimes ago
but today somehow
I remembered you again,

so many came
and so many went
some my own
some unknown,

life had offered
an opportunity then
and had told you
hold my hand,

but you smiled
and disappeared
into a future
unknown,

and no one
hence
ever understood
this heart again,

you knew
my commitment
yet you smiled
and vanished,

and today
for some reason
some memories
came alive,

i wonder why
i remembered you today
i know i wish
then, you had stayed.

© vidursahdev 2018

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One

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I hide behind
the darkest nights
the passion
of a thousand suns,

seek if you know
that fire burns
it’ll ravage you
an entire night,

survive if you do
the depths of oneness
with your soul
still claiming to be yours,

I’ll humbly shed
all cloaks of disguise
and be subservient
to that soul of yours.

© vidursahdev 2018

Oh Sun

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even the earth
needs time off
from you,
oh my dear
shining sun,

though you be
the energy, the light
and the warmth,
that keeps
it alive,

but all life
living on it,
still needs
a break
from you,

you may
be good
to see,
and thank
on another day,

unchanged
consistent
and as punctual,
as only
you are,

but its time
for me to rest too now,
for the moon
awaits to weave
more dreams,

till the next dawn
when you’ll challenge
that weave again,
oh dear sun
its adieu from me.

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Vidur
17Dec17

introspection

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i could have
lied to myself,
as this world often
conditions us
to do,

i could have saved the ego
from the risk,
and let intentions
remain weak,
lost in the dark,

to someday breathe
an air of regrets,
where you would have
asked me a why,
or maybe a why not,

so i chose to stretch
this temporary neck,
beyond
the strength
of the bones it holds,

pretence was never
my strength to show,
where the flow
of energy
is a stranger known,

i like to have
my feet in the sand,
irrespective
of the waves
rocking me to and fro,

its the sinking to a point
that i love,
and the confidence
that beyond it
me, it will hold,

i dont look for answers
that my eyes can’t feel,
for some said words lie,
beyond the logics
of this visual time,

yet there exists
that
which holds value,
in the here and now
as well as in the beyond,

you and i
are a tiny bit
in this
continuous
evolving realm,

you everyday
seem to grow,
into the sea
and sands
that so well i know,

so i let myself go,
knowing
to sink is easy,
and not everyone knows
how to hold,

for eyes here
often seek more,
than what they know
they can meaningfully
hold.

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Vidur
16Dec17

memories

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they click pictures
capturing memories,

each other’s
one by one,

and then
the ones together,

with the inherent
intent of a lasting forever,

and as the wave
reaches me,

reminders of mine
come back to me,

i stand smiling
making a wish,

may their’s always
remain with them,

as alive tomorrow
as in this moment,

beyond the reach
of the oncoming wave,

for when the wave
decides to recede,

it often takes back
what it brings with it,

and i click a picture
of that fluid flow,

which returns mine
back to the sea,

i wait, bid goodbye
unburdened of holding,

that which forever
can’t be held,

knowing they remain
safely in its care for eternity.

——————

Vidur
13Dec17

question/sawaal   (bilingual)

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s a w a a l        (hindi)ab sab kuchh
agar kehana hi pade
to jazbon ki kimat
kya hogi,

har subah ka suraj
agar roz kah ke jage
toh uss subah
ki kimat  kya hogi,

na hoon main na hai tu
khud se be-khabar
agar phir bhi hai darr
khud se hone ka door,

toh phir ishq mohabbat
pyar wafa
in sab imaanon
ki kimat kya hogi.

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q u e s t i on       (english)
if everything needs
words to be conveyed
then what is left
of the intrinsic value
of the emotions held,

if the sun had to announce
his arrival each day
what would be left
of of the unsaid trust
we hold in him,

neither am i, nor are you
even a little disconnected
with our souls within
so why the fear
of losing yourself,

if love, compassion trust and faith
reduced one from what one is
then what would be left
of the relevance
of our belief in them.

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Vidur
12Dec17